“Go where the pain is; go where the pleasure is.” Anne Rice
When we’re feeling the most exposed – the most vulnerable – that’s when we experience fear.
Our fears are real and honest.
When we were kids, most of us were afraid of something – monsters, the dark, thunder and many other fears.
As adults however, instead of hiding from the monster in our closet when we’re afraid, we run from the possibility of sharing our honest self with others.
So what are these fears we face and how can being vulnerable when we’re afraid, draw the biggest rewards?
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What are some of those fears?
There are many different fears we face when we write and share our words with the world. This fear is real and it’s the possibility they might come true, that scares us. Whether your stressed or maybe in denial about the fear, it can drag you down even when you’re focussed on getting through it.
So what are some of the biggest concerns that make many writers afraid?
- Fear of being an imposter. When you try something new – like writing a book or a blogpost – you are stepping out into new territory. It’s risky and most of the time you feel like someone’s going to wave a neon sign that says she’s not a real author.
- Fear of sharing your work. I remember sharing my first book with my critique partner and being scared of what she would say. There’s always the fear that our writing will be judged poorly.
- Fear of failure. We’re scared that we’ll have bad reviews and that our book won’t sell and that people simply won’t like it.
- Fear of success. You might imagine that once you have a book that’s successful, they’ll be too many expectations put on you and you won’t be able to write another book that’s good.
- Fear of no work-life balance. This is one I fear. And it’s very real, that a ton of work goes into indie publishing, no matter where you’re at on the journey. I often get afraid that I’ll miss out on some of our kids activities because work overwhelm.
All these fears are like a signal, a little like having a pain in our body. Sometimes we can ignore the pain but if it’s bigger it’s a little more serious. When you are feeling more vulnerable and afraid, chances are, that’s a fear you should listen to.
When as an artist, you go where the pain is, you’re going to the place where you’ll have your greatest resonance with readers and your words.
Listen to what scares you. If you’re taking this risk of being vulnerable and exposing yourself to the world, more than likely it’s something worth doing. If it wasn’t worth doing, you probably wouldn’t have fear around it.
Brene Brown, in her incredible TED talk, says we have these fears because we are vulnerable. When we look at someone else and we see them being vulnerable and taking a risk and doing something other people don’t do, we see it as courage.
But, when we see vulnerability in ourselves, we see it as weakness and we say “if I’m feeling afraid it’s because I’m weak.”
When in fact it’s when we recognize that that vulnerability – their courage – that we see in others, this is the filter we need to see ourselves through. When we do that it will give us strategy on how to be brave.
So how do we bravely do what scares us?
Fear is basically waiting for something bad that hasn’t happened yet.
When you’re writing your book, you might be afraid someone will judge you, that you won’t make your deadline or that your reviews will be bad.
The biggest way to push past fear is to start doing something with our creativity.
Yes your fears are legitimate, honest and very real, but I’ve noticed when I write what I’m scared of – like I do in this blog – that somehow it helps me to sort through what makes me afraid and where I feel the most vulnerable.
For example, right now my biggest three fears I’m facing are around putting my first non-fiction book out into the world and the online class that goes with it on how to Write and Publish Your First Book. It scares me silly. I think my biggest three fears connected with that are: fear of sharing my work that it might be judged poorly; fear of being an imposter because it’s new for me; and fear of failure that despite hundreds of hours involved creating it, people won’t like it.
However, I went through a bunch of fear when I published my first fiction book, and when I actually finished the book and published it, somehow it gave me confidence that I could do this again. That’s what I remember and it helps me to be brave to try the next new thing.
Here’s the thing. No matter where you are along the journey as a writer, you’ll always face fear in one form or another. What important is that you practice countering that fear and risking vulnerability anyway.
People who take risks by being vulnerable – where they go out in the world and open themselves up – those are the people who become the most connected and have the strongest sense of worthiness and belonging.
This is how you can draw the biggest rewards by exposing the authentic you.
So be inspired by Brene Brown’s words today as you shake off fear through creative action:
“Vulnerability is the birthplace of creativity, innovation, and change. It’s also the birthplace of joy, faith and connection. To create is to make something that has never existed before. There’s nothing more vulnerable than that.”
Have you had moments where you’ve felt rewarded from being vulnerable in your writing? I’d love to hear your story in the comments.
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